I can’t sleep, I had the bright idea to go to bed early, like 9:30 or something.. I normally don’t go to bed until 1am, but I was tired… I am awake so I know I am controlling my dreams, but I can’t describe it very well… I think I went to bed thinking about the new section I plan to make on my website, called ¿WTF?… But if you go to bed thinking about something to deeply you can’t sleep.

Somewhere along the line I did fall asleep, but it was very bad sleep I was dreaming something about BEING the artwork on my website. Now if you are a regular to my website you know that some of the artwork I have had over the years on this site is pretty fucked up… I am also considering bringing back the really Dark / Evil artwork when I put the customize section up again, so you can choose Normal Random, or else can choose from a couple different collections like Anime, and Dark Shit etc…

All the time I was dreaming of being all this messed up artwork I had a song looping in my head, go figure from the new ben folds album called Bastard… I actually really like this song, but my god when it loops in your head for 4+ hours while you are sleeping it’s not good. I uploaded this to my site again so people can try to reference this dream.

I think I was mostly focusing on the lyrics that said “why ya gotta act like you know when you don’t know”. Now sure, I am fairly confident that I do know a lot of shit, but I would like to think myself humble enough to know that if I don’t know something I can own up to it and instead of acting like I do, I try to learn whatever it is I don’t know. So It must be related the the dreams where I am somebody/something else. There is a dream interpreter on the forms page of my website, well it’s actually a dictionary from hyperdictionary.com. If you type llama or something it tells you what it means to be dreaming about a llama, but It doesn’t tell me what it means to be imagining you are non existent creatures from fucked up artwork.

This entire post is probably completely nonsensical, but if you don’t write shit down that happens when you can’t sleep, you will never be able to get past it.