Ab Imo Pectore

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Ab Imo Pectore

Monday, October 22nd, 2007 | Helpful, Life

When life hands you lemons, make lemonade. Then, find someone whose life has given them vodka, and have a party!

There is a philosophy for everything. and as I sit here over-thinking things I have come to a few conclusions:

1) Life is short - It has never been more evident to me than it has this month. It is easy for me to say I escaped as I am still alive, however I am not unscathed and will forever be changed. The trick I believe is to know what happened in your life to get you where you are but not dwell on it, just move on. Which brings me to conclusion number two.

2) You cannot live in the past - Think this is easy? This is the toughest thing to do. If you focus on the shitty things in the past then it is what you will see in the future. There are no real if-and-buts about it. You ever hear of the course “The Secret” (which was on this site until last week wiped out 600 videos)? All the damn thing says ask and you shall receive… yep, old school bible stuff. Just focus on what you want and not what you don’t want.

3) Find somebody who will listen to you - Wife, friend, mother, pet… Whatever works… Just know that when you are speaking that somebody actually cares enough to listen.

4) Never be without music in your mind - I can’t even begin to express how much music has done for me. There comes a time when you think nobody understands you but then you hear a song, and suddenly you know that you are not alone. I have over 44,421 songs in one folder yet I can throw them all into at shuffle and wallah, it finds something that fits what I need. Music will never leave you and it is there in all of your good and bad times.

Those are the conclusions I drew tonight. A lot of people expect me to act or feel a certain way now that my sister has died. I wanted to try to feel those ways but due to my own core beliefs I can only feel the way that I am. I can be sad while still being thankful. I can be depressed while still being optimistic. I can feel hungry while still feeling full and I can live while being lost.